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ik aisa manzar tha jisay dekh ker dukh bhi dil main baith-ta tha…aur ik nahin bahut saray dukh dil main jagah banatay thay…lafzoon kay zian ka dukh hota hay jo un manazir per kia jo zindagi main nazroon kay samnay aaye, unhoon nay mabhoot kia aur mutassir kia aur aap nay jitnay lafz thay unki shan main bayan ker diyay aur jab yeh ilaqa aap kay samnay hay aur khunk hawa k sath barfeelay pani aap k paoon may chaltay hain aap k pass ussay bayan kernay k laiay koi naye lafz nahin hain aur puranay lafz arsa hoa bartay ja chukay hain, boseeda ho chukay hain.
ik aur dukh jo dil main jaga banata hay woh is manzar ko akilay dekhnay ka dukh hay…woh jo pyaray hain un ko bhi tou issay dekhna chahiyay…kyonk aap apnay pyaroon k liay dunya ki khooobsurat tareen cheezoon ki khowahish kertay hain aur yeh yaqeenan un main say ik hay…aur ik dukh is manzar k gum ho janay ka hay…yeh hoga aur aap nahin houn gay…
This is extracted from Tarar’s book ‘Nanga Parbat’.
I had a strange feeling when i was there last year. i was feeling exactly the same. when i was standing in front of the ‘Killer’, i was feeling like something is missing. and now i know what i was missing. i was missing my loved ones; my family, my friends. Anyhow, I’ve decided to take all of them there with me. although most of them doesn’t value it much but once, just once i want them there, to know what it feels when u stare at the Killer.